This Is What Endometriosis Feels Like

The pain is deep and heavy, almost as though I’m being pulled down by gravity. It’s a soreness, sometimes a pinch or a twinge or even a stab — but nearly always it is just deep and full, almost like a moan that stays always in a low octave. There are times, at night as I find I can’t move because it has pulled me down against my bed, where I find that I, too, must audibly groan. Almost as though I’m harmonizing with the depth of the painful chord inside.

When it is tired and much heavier than usual, it will fall against my lower back. It sits there and pushes against my spine. I try not to tense, which only makes it worse, but even to try to relax, to breathe, seems to do little. The pain is not something I can guard against nor can I breathe into it — to breathe into it would be no less irritating than to fill a balloon to near bursting — and at times, that’s exactly how it feels. Sometimes I realize I am holding my breath and when I let it go, my legs shake and I feel a swell of pain that ripples through me as though a vibration from a hard-hit chord.

Pain may shoot down my legs. Pain may rise up and interrupt whatever I’ve tried to feed myself. The pain buzzes at my pelvic floor whenever I go to the bathroom. When, penetrated with the promise of pleasure, there is a deep and sudden ache that spreads in rhythmic time between my hip bones. I grit my teeth and reach for pleasure but it doesn’t come, I don’t come, and after I bleed.

Sometimes I may bleed for a few days and instead of post-coital tingling, there is a sizzling pain and exhaustion that brings tears to my eyes.

I take a lot of hot baths, even when it’s 80 degrees in my apartment. I sweat, but I need the penetrating heat just so I can catch my breath. Sometimes I take three baths in a single afternoon. Other times, I’m glued to my heating pad, or those patches you can wear. I wish those were covered by insurance because they are $7.00 per box and I go through at least three boxes per week during a bad flare.

When I run, there are twinges. Sometimes when the rush of endorphins washes through my body, I may get a moment’s peace, but when my feet have slowed and my breathing heightens, the pain gives way to nausea, and full-body spinning. My body is begging me to be still.

Yet, to be still is nearly impossible. The pain is twisting and wringing, and no matter what I do there are times when I can’t get comfortable. I lie flat, then I lie on one side with my knees to my chest. Then I curl into a tiny ball. Then I’m splayed out, half my body draped over the side of the bed, my head touching the floor. Then I’m squatting, my chest against my bed, grasping the sheets tightly. There are times when I feel as though I want to stretch my body out until my limbs lose all their elasticity. Other times, my body seizes up and tries to be small, curling into a fetal fibonacci.

People tell me just relax. Doctors say it. Well meaning friends. Anyone who has even bore witness to the pain implores me to relax. I no longer have control over this situation, you must understand. I can breath in and around and within the pain — but that’s the thing, I am in pain. I am living inside of it. That’s what I’m saying, really, when I say “I am in pain” — because to feel a pain so raw and deep and penetrating is to leave this reality entirely and exist on a separate plane as it each pulse moves through you, as though your internal organs are being bruised and beaten.

What about sex? What about it, yes, well, it is something to be endured that’s for certain. Even self-sex, so many have suggested, what about masturbation? Having a non-penetrative orgasm? Orgasms feel good! They send endorphins throughout your body. You should just have orgasms.

Ah yes, but see, that’s the other injustice. While the twisted internal anatomy has prevented me from enjoying accepting a willing and joyous penis into the vault of my womb, I am similarly unable to even experience an orgasm as the lone wolf that I currently am. This is because the shuddering, tighten-and-release mechanism of an orgasm sends my uterus — and, I allege, whatever it is adhered to currently with fibrous, damaged tissue — into a tight, grating spasm not unlike a “Charlie Horse.”

Is the brief and emancipating pleasure of a fifteen second orgasm worse the hour of such a reproductive wrenching? Not to me, no.

I know that people are only trying to help, to offer me a solution. But I know that right now, in current medicine, there isn’t one. I am learning to accept that. So, when I share my pain with you, when I invite you into it, do not try to pull me out because you will only drag yourself down to where I am. Instead, just stay where you are. Reach your hand down not to pull me out, but to simply applaud my valiant efforts not to squeeze your hand until it falls off from lack of sufficient circulation.

The Child Safety Issue That Doctors Don't Talk About

While editorial opinion seemed to be running against the recent 11th-District ruling that reinstated Florida’s gag law, there were some notable exceptions, chief among them being an op-ed that appeared in the Pensacola News Journal written by Marion Hammer. As a career NRA lobbyist, this lady has a long and courageous history fighting for the rights of gun owners in the Gunshine state, as well as for standing up for the oppressed in general, having been responsible not only for Florida’s concealed-carry law but also as the architect of Florida’s Stand Your Ground law, the first of its kind in the U.S.

Hammer begins her diatribe by reminding readers that the real agenda of physicians is to rid the country of guns, and she lifts anti-gun statements from the AAP website to support her case. She then goes on to remind physicians that if they “genuinely wish to offer safety information [they] can simply hand out firearms safety and safe storage brochures to all patients. Interrogating parents and children about what they own or have in the home is not only an intrusion but is a violation of privacy rights.”

Now I know that the press is very sensitive to anything that even remotely smacks of censorship, hence, if someone wants to express their opinions the editorial policy usually means that the writer can say more or less anything they damn well want to say. But if Hammer thinks she’s presenting anything other than a total fiction about the role and responsibilities of the physician in counseling patients, then either her own physician never went to medical school, or she simply doesn’t have the faintest idea about what physicians actually do. Her statement that doctors are violating privacy by inquiring about items in the home is a mind-boggling distortion of the doctor-patient relationship and I only hope that she has the good sense to avail herself of medical care that’s a little more aware of the requirements of the Hippocratic Oath than she seems to be.

In a way I can’t blame her for promoting a vision of medical care that’s so at odds with the reality of doctor-patient relationships, because there’s even a physician out there named Robert Young, who basically said the same thing in an op-ed piece published by the Sarasota Herald-Tribune. Like Hammer, Dr. Young also believes that physicians should limit their concern about gun ownership to handing out gun safety brochures developed by the NRA, whose gun-safety program for children, Eddie Eagle, has never been shown to have any positive safety results at all.

I’m not surprised that Ms. Hammer would follow Dr. Young’s lead in advocating the distribution of gun safety materials to patients. After all, she’s a lobbyist for the NRA and all their training courses emphasize safe use of guns. On the other hand, the NRA avoids the issue of safe gun storage like the plague, because the last thing they would endorse are mandatory laws requiring gun owners to lock away their guns. After all, if guns are locked away to keep them from the kids, how will the “good guys” with the guns stop the “bad guys” with the guns?

Physicians need to ask patients if they lock away their guns for the same reason they ask patients whether their children are constrained while sitting in the car. Unlocked guns are a health risk just like unlocked seat belts, and if Marion Hammer wants to dispute the studies which link gun ownership to higher levels of child mortality and morbidity, she’s also has the Constitutional right to promote the idea that the moon is made out of cheese.

Hysteria About ISIS Is Unwarranted

Sometime back, the surprise invasion of northern Iraq by the vicious Islamist group Islamic State in Iraq and Syria (ISIS) raised eyebrows in Washington policy-making circles and the American media. However, it took gruesome footage of the beheading of journalist James Foley to throw these foreign policy elites into hysteria. There is no question that ISIS is one of the most brutal terrorist organizations in the world, but the real question is: How big of a threat is the group to U.S. security?

The answer is not very much unless the U.S. government makes it so. ISIS has some potential to turn into a threat to the American homeland if Uncle Sam again goes in like gangbusters and makes new enemies, as it already has in Pakistan, Yemen, and Somalia. Unfortunately, the U.S. tendency to see any foreign civil war or brutal group as a threat and be on a hair trigger to use military power has been in evidence with the limited U.S. airstrikes in Iraq against the group now being undertaken.

ISIS funds its operations, in part, by extorting ransom for hostages. In the case of Foley, the group had to forgo a potentially lucrative bounty to tragically and heinously kill an innocent American hostage to make a retaliatory political point. That graphic statement came in response to U.S. airstrikes to stop the group’s progress in Iraq.

Yet ISIS is still a regional threat, not a threat to the U.S. homeland. But don’t take my word for it, listen to the General Martin Dempsey, Chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff and the president’s top military adviser. Dempsey said that there is no sign that ISIS militants are engaged in “active plotting against the homeland.” He also said that if the group eventually does threaten the United States, he would not hesitate to recommend taking U.S. military action against the group in Syria, but reiterated that that is not the case now. Dempsey’s remarks were likely aimed at diffusing strident demands by the Keystone (World) Cops–John McCain and Lindsay Graham–and other war(talking)heads demanding that the United States escalate the violence and bomb ISIS in Syria too.

The threat from ISIS’s small force of 3,000 fighters has now been blunted and contained. The likelihood is nil that the Sunni group would get much popular support in any invasion of Shi’ite southern Iraq, and it is now getting more effective push back from the Kurdish Peshmerga militias in northeastern Iraq. The only reason the Sunni Arab tribes did not resist ISIS’s reentry into Iraq–remember the group left Iraq as al Qaeda in Iraq, which had been created as a response to George W. Bush’s invasion of Iraq, because Sunni tribes threw them out owing to their excessive brutality–was that the U.S-friendly Shi’ite government of Nouri al Maliki had been oppressing Sunnis. Even more barbaric than its violent precursor al Qaeda in Iraq, ISIS may be again evicted by the Iraqi Sunni tribes if the new Shi’ite-dominant government in Iraq treats Sunnis better than did the ousted al Maliki autocracy or if, even better, Iraq were to be reconfigured into a loose confederation of autonomous regions in which each of the groups had self-rule.

Dempsey also cogently noted that U.S.-friendly countries in the region, such as Turkey, Jordan and Saudi Arabia would have an incentive to stop such a radical group. According to Dempsey, those regional friendlies could cooperate and squeeze ISIS “from multiple directions in order to initially disrupt and eventually defeat them. It has to happen with them, much less with us.” He did not mention that the less U.S.-friendly Shi’ite power in the region–Iran–would have an even bigger incentive to defeat the group and could even cooperate under the table with these regional rivals to get the job done.
So now that U.S. bombing in Iraq has blunted and contained the ISIS threat, instead of U.S. escalation to begin bombing the group in Syria, the best option is for the United States to de-escalate and turn the ultimate destruction of the group over to regional countries. Dempsey did suggest one possibility that should be rejected: U.S. forces could provide more expanded advice and assistance to the Iraqi armed forces. To date, the United States has inserted only a small number of troops back on the ground in Iraq, supposedly to guard U.S. facilities. However, more troops for this added advice and assistance mission could drag the United States back into another Iraqi morass, the way such a modest beginning pulled the United States into the Vietnam War.
Besides, the retaliatory killing of Foley shows that what really unnecessarily stirs the hornets’ nest with barbaric Islamists is non-Muslim attacks on Muslim soil. So instead of the usual jumping in as the world’s policemen, why doesn’t the United States let regional friends take the lead in vanquishing the relatively small ISIS group. The United States should terminate air strikes and turn the fight over to countries in the area that are directly threatened by ISIS. This course of action would dramatically lesson the chance that the United States would needlessly make another enemy in a war it should have avoided.

The Frightening Effect Of The Celebrity 'Baby Bump' Craze

As Kim Kardashian and Kate Middleton prove, pregnant stars sell magazines. But how does that exposure affect non-famous women who are also pregnant? A recent study from Victoria University of Wellington in New Zealand provides an answer, and it’s not positive.

The researchers found that when a pregnant woman exhibits an interest in pregnant celebrities as well as a high concern for her physical appearance, she is likely to experience reduced levels of prenatal attachment. Translation: Those “baby bump” headlines are not only hurting your body image; they also might be severing the natural bonds between women and their babies-to-be.

“If you look at pregnant celebrities, they’re shown wearing bikinis late in pregnancy, and they’ve still got a beautiful figure with just this little kind of pregnancy ‘bump,'” Dr. Jayne Krisjanous, Ph.D., one of the authors of the study from the School of Marketing and International Business at Victoria University of Wellington, told The Huffington Post.

Krisjanous, a former midwife, and her research partners, James E. Richard and Aaron Gazley, surveyed 468 women during their first pregnancies to examine their pre-existing values, attitudes and lifestyle behaviors as they related to pregnant celebrity media consumption. The researchers were inspired by the notable rise in cesarean rates after all of the “Too Posh To Push” headlines during Victoria Beckham’s four pregnancies, and they wanted to formally look at how pregnant celebrity culture affects expectant women.

“People look at celebrities and say ‘Why am I so much bigger? How can they just have this little bump and my hips and waist are changing?'”

In the study, they honed in on body image, using the survey answers to measure five factors: usual concern for physical appearance, pregnant celebrity attraction, pregnancy weight worry, pregnancy body image dissatisfaction and, of course, prenatal attachment, defined as a relationship in which the mother seeks “to know, to be with, to avoid separation or loss, to protect, and to identify and gratify the needs of her fetus.” This information allowed Krisjanous and her co-authors to look at each woman and determine the “extent to which respondent is excited by, anticipates and enjoys the process of being pregnant and the changes happening to her body.”

Ultimately, the study showed an alarming link between attraction to celebrity pregnancy and disruption in prenatal attachment. This effect was seen in those concerned about appearance and gaining weight during pregnancy.

People internalize ‘bump-watching’ more than they think.

When pregnant women draw comparisons between their bodies and the bodies of those with a mere “bump,” the harmful effects start with self-image before manifesting as a lack of connection with the baby.

“People look at celebrities and say ‘Why am I so much bigger? How can they just have this little bump and my hips and waist are changing?” Maggie Baumann, a psychotherapist in Newport Beach, California, who specializes in treating people struggling from eating disorders, told The Huffington Post. “It’s unrealistic and negative feedback to the normal population of women that are pregnant.”

Baumann is a recovering “pregorexic” who now runs a web-based support group for moms with eating disorders. She wrote about her struggle with “pregorexia” for MomLogic.com in 2009 and has been an advocate for the cause ever since. During her second pregnancy, her eating disorder kicked in as she felt her body changing, albeit naturally. This intense self-scrutiny led her to engage in unhealthy behaviors, such as over-exercise and diet restriction, and caused her to disassociate from her unborn child, much like the respondents in Krisjanous’ study.

“I had this internal negative dialogue that I was losing control of my body,” Baumann said. “I know this sounds horrible, but at the time, because I was sick, I thought of my baby as this alien taking control of my body. I’m thinking that this thing is taking control of my body — I’m not attaching to it, because I didn’t sense that it was a baby until it was born. That was when I was able to think, ‘Here’s my baby; I can hold my baby; I can feed my baby.’ All of those things that are important for attachment really didn’t happen until after I had had my baby.”

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Celebrity culture is a common topic in Baumann’s support group, as moms and moms-to-be bemoan the media’s focus on pregnant celebrities who manage to squeeze into bikinis, bandage dresses and skinny jeans all the way into their third trimesters.

“They talk about how it seems unattainable when you look at these women when you’re pregnant,” Baumann explained. “[Celebrities] have personal chefs, personal trainers and you really don’t know what’s Photoshopped. Then they emerge right after they have their baby, and they look like they’ve never even had a baby.”

Pregnant women are particularly vulnerable to these messages, said Krisjanous, since many of them are experiencing these body changes for the first time or don’t have access to proper medical advice. One of the hardest things for women to hear, she explained, is talk of the celebrity “baby bump.”

“You see all of the time that it’s described as a ‘bump’ — you know, the ‘perfect little bump’ or the ‘pregnancy bump,'” Krisjanous said. “A pregnancy is much more than that. It’s a complete body change. For most women, just maintaining that little ‘bump’ is unachievable.”

But where does the obsession with pregnant celebrities start?

Krisjanous said that stars are at the peak of their beauty during their fertile years, which plays into society’s fascination with aesthetics. To this day, Demi Moore’s 1991 Vanity Fair cover, featuring the star posing naked and pregnant, is considered one of photographer Annie Leibovitz’s most recognizable photos. Not to mention, many subsequently pregnant celebrities, such as Jessica Simpson and Britney Spears, have played homage to the iconic image with their own nude pregnancy covers.

While cover lines like “My Body After Baby” and “98 Lbs. & Pregnant” weren’t as prevalent when Baumann was expecting in the late 1980s, she received her fair share of positive feedback for her svelte maternity body, which echoed the idolization put toward today’s pregnant stars. All of these accolades were given as she nearly miscarried at 11 weeks pregnant and had her fetus diagnosed with intrauterine growth retardation, as a result of poor nutrition, at seven months. By the time she went into labor, she was 5 feet 8 inches and weighed just above 135 pounds.

“People were commenting, ‘You have such a good body and you’re pregnant. How do you do that?'” Baumann said. “When I went in for my cesarean in 1987, two of the OR nurses were pregnant at the time and they were looking at me going, ‘Oh my gosh, you look so good. How did you stay so small?'”

Bottom line: Avert your gaze from the expecting 1 percent.

It’s worth noting, however, that even Krisjanous doesn’t think all celebrity attention or even body focus is bad — it’s merely when coupled with insecurity that prenatal attachment was negatively affected. She said that most women aren’t concerned with staying small while they’re with child. They look at these headlines and think, “Well, I can’t look like that,” and have perfectly normal attachments to their fetuses.

But for those who are affected by celebrity culture, low prenatal attachment can open the door to a slew of problems, such as postpartum depression and a low level of attachment with the baby post-birth, according to previous research.

“The media is showcasing this pregnant celebrity that’s thin and bikini-wearing, but keep in mind that that’s not necessarily the full picture.”

And since it doesn’t seem the media will be shifting its focus away from celebrity pregnancies anytime soon, both Krisjanous and Baumann said it’s up to women to stay above the pressure to maintain small pregnant bodies. They suggest getting information from credible sources, such as websites that are recommended by health practitioners, and taking body image concerns directly to doctors.

“Women just need to be sensible about what they believe is true through the media in terms of celebrities and maintaining their appearance,” said Krisjanous. “The media is showcasing this pregnant celebrity that’s thin and bikini-wearing, but keep in mind that that’s not necessarily the full picture.”

As for Baumann, she instructs the women in her group to understand that, although thin pregnant bodies might be healthfully achievable for some women, they shouldn’t feel compelled to emulate these ladies’ behaviors or try to achieve their bodies through unhealthy means, even if magazines are holding them up as paradigms of pregnancy.

“We’re looking at a very, very small segment of the population that are being shown in the media, but we have to remember that maybe 1 percent of the population are celebrities. And who are usually celebrities? People that have attractive bodies,” she said. “I’m trying to let them look at the whole picture, because what we’re seeing in the media is really a very small picture of what’s really out there.”

Until websites and magazines start showcasing a range of pregnant bodies, it looks like women will have to use their imaginations to see that full picture — or they can simply take a look around at all of the beautiful, diverse, non-celebrity pregnant bodies walking the streets each day.

George R.R. Martin Takes On Ice Bucket Challenge 'Game Of Thrones' Style

Winter just came!

Recently, “Game of Thrones” author George R.R. Martin took on the ALS Ice Bucket Challenge, and repeated various lines from “GoT” while doing so.

Dozens of celebrities have put their own spin on the challenge, but with a freezing Martin shouting things like, “Winter came,” this one may be the greatest in the Seven Kingdoms.

[h/t Uproxx]

THIS Is How To Get Your Kids Out Of Bed For School In The Morning

Going back to school is a painful process for everyone involved — whether it’s a little separation anxiety from the kiddos or simply the agony of getting everyone up in the morning. Even eating breakfast can be a struggle, but one Japanese company found a way to make that entire process just a little more “bearable.”

Introducing the Ernest Bread Pop Up! A “Teddy-Bear Toast Stamp” that already makes mornings a little brighter just by looking at the cute little faces. Although it’s no substitution for sleeping in a little more, if you’re already getting up, it might as well be for an adorable toasted treat.

The concept of the stamp is a cute one — not only does it “pop” up, but it also has three wee interchangeable expressions to etch into toast or breakfast sandwiches. We would say that it’s the coolest thing since sliced bread, but that’s way too cheesy.

Take a look!

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If you’re looking for another panda-rific way to change up meals, try these cute Panda Pocket Makers. And if you’re simply an overachiever, you can make your kid the talk of the lunch table by packing a Japanese Bento Box.

(h/t Bored Panda)

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5 Back to School Tips for Safer Driving

Soon, millions of kids will strap on their backpacks and start another school year. But in communities across the country, there’s an unexpected group of students also going back into the classroom. Each year, approximately 500,000 drivers, mostly 50 and older, attend a classroom-based Smart Driver course to refresh critical skills and learn new techniques for staying safe on the road. In the spirit of back to school, and the start of the fall season, here are a few tips from the Smart Driver course curriculum:

1. Understand the signals on a school bus. According to the National Highway Traffic Safety Administration (NHTSA), the greatest risk for school children who ride a school bus isn’t actually riding the bus–it’s approaching or leaving the bus. More school-age pedestrians have been killed between the hours of 3 p.m. and 4 p.m. than any other time of day. Make sure you know and understand these signals:

  • Flashing yellow lights: Indicate that the bus is preparing to stop to load or unload children. In this case, you need to slow down and be prepared to stop.
  • Red flashing lights and an extended stop sign at the front of the bus: Indicates that you must stop driving, no matter which side of the bus you are approaching. Wait for the sign to be withdrawn and for the lights to stop flashing before driving again.

2. Watch your speed in school zones. The speed limit in school zones is never more than 25 miles per hour, and it is often as low as 15 miles per hour. Remember that you must stop for school buses that are loading or unloading students, even in the opposite direction, unless the lanes are separated by a median.

3. Be careful of fallen leaves. For many parts of the country, the ground will soon be covered with leaves. After it rains, use extreme caution since leaves can become very slippery and present dangerous driving conditions. Dry leaves can also present a problem to your vehicle. Avoid parking your vehicle near leaf piles to prevent fires that could start from your vehicle’s catalytic converter.

4. Prepare for shorter days. As daylight savings time ends, give your body time to adjust to the slight time difference. Driving drowsy is responsible for over 100,000 crashes a year, according to NHTSA. If you are not as comfortable driving in the dark, plan your driving accordingly.

5. Be on the lookout for deer. Deer activity peaks from October to December. Keep these tips in mind:

  • If an animal jumps out in front of you, brake quickly but do not swerve.
  • Be especially alert at dusk and dawn when visibility can be reduced; 90 percent of collisions with animals occur at these times.
  • If you see animal-crossing signs or if you are traveling through a wooded area, use reduced speeds. Remember that animals often travel together, so expect more than one animal to cross the road.
  • If you hit an animal, call local law enforcement from a safe area. Many states have specific requirements if you hit an animal. Know your state’s and any state’s rules that you are traveling to.

If you are interested in going back to the classroom to learn more tips like this, find a Smart Driver course in your area.

The Global Search for Education: The Top 10

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“The Global Search for Education series takes important issues related to global education and gives them context.” — Adam Steiner

Diane Ravitch, Howard Gardner, Sir Ken Robinson, Pak Tee Ng, Pasi Sahlberg, Tony Wagner, Yong Zhao, Krista Kiuru, Peter Vesterbacka, Randi Weingarten, Jonathan Jansen, Michael Fullan and Andy Hargreaves, among others, have been chosen for our first Global Search for Education Top 10 List.

We asked Adam Steiner, a technology integration specialist for the Holliston Public Schools in Holliston, Massachusetts and a doctoral researcher at Boston College, to make an assessment of the over 250 interviews we’ve published and give us his view of our top ten articles.

Adam is the co-author with Dr. Elizabeth Stringer of a forthcoming book on Universal Design for Learning (UDL) and technology (scheduled release date of March 2015 from Rowman & Littlefield). He joins me to discuss the Top 10 in today’s edition of The Global Search for Education.

Adam, I like your first selection – my 2012 interview with Diane Ravitch. How have The Global Search for Education articles helped you as an educator?

The Global Search for Education series takes important issues related to global education and gives them context. Given the various threads of my personal and professional life, the interviews have helped to put it all in a broader context and give it a larger meaning.

As a teacher, your 2012 interview with Diane Ravitch, in particular, represents the need for teaching to remain a respected profession. I know that my first few years of teaching were such a challenge and would have been impossible if I felt the community did not respect my work. Diane Ravitch rightly argues that a well-respected teaching profession requires higher expectations for teachers and stricter requirements for entry into the profession.

1. The Global Search for Education: The Education Debate 2012 with Diane Ravitch

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“Diane Ravitch rightly argues that a well-respected teaching profession requires higher expectations for teachers and stricter requirements for entry into the profession.” — Adam Steiner

Can I assume that the articles you selected as Nos. 2 and 3 on your list are related to your experience as a technology integration specialist?

Absolutely. Over the past five years, my professional focus has shifted from classroom teacher to technology integration specialist. My particular focus has been on the use of assistive technology in partnership with the Universal Design for Learning (UDL) framework to support inclusive classrooms. Singapore is an amazing example of a country that is using technology to help transform its educational system and there is no better person to speak to this than Pak Tee Ng, Professor at the University of Singapore – the best known expert on the Singaporean education system. He emphasizes that Singapore is seeking out uses of technology that transform teaching and not just prop up traditional modes. Tony Wagner continues this theme in my third choice when he talks about technology as a source of pedagogical transformation. In your interview, Tony talks about visiting a school system that had invested tens of thousands in interactive whiteboards in classrooms. Despite the innovative technology, the teaching had not changed – the devices were simply being used as sophisticated test prep tools. As a technology integration specialist, I find myself promoting and supporting the purchase of classroom technology. However, I am also constantly checking to insure that my work is promoting innovative teaching and not just equipment.

2. The Global Search for Education: Got Tech? – Singapore with Pak Tee Ng

3. The Global Search for Education: Education Technology with Tony Wagner

I was pleased that my interview with Yong Zhao made no. 4 on your list. As an education researcher, what interested you most about this article?

China is on a continual journey of self-examination of its own schools. There is no better guide in this irony than Yong Zhao, University of Oregon Professor and expert on the Chinese educational system. Dr. Zhao emphasized efforts to lessen the gap between wealthy and poor, powerful and powerless, a topic that has huge implications for the United States and our disturbing inequality. He described a pernicious selection of students into a hierarchical arrangement of schools and a need for a broad cultural shift that would measure the value of a school intrinsically rather than in comparison to other schools. The growing emphasis on large-scale standardized testing in the US would seem to run contrary to this effort.

4. The Global Search for Education: Focus on China with Yong Zhao

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“Jonathan Jansen’s South African experience has powerful ramifications for any country looking to make significant reform. He emphasizes the importance of approaching reform with an eye toward systemic change rather than tackling issues in a piecemeal fashion.” — Adam Steiner

No. 5 on your list – a look at Finland’s education system for inspiration in the Global Search series.

I had the privilege to hear Dr. Pasi Sahlberg speak at Boston College and this interview illuminated several of the topics he discussed. Three points hit home with me. First, Finland has made a massive investment in teaching such that the profession is now one of the most sought-after jobs in the country. Second, there is an emphasis on equitable schooling that reaches every child rather than in boutique private or quasi-public schools. Third, emotional well-being is valued over test results. My fear is that the United States is moving in precisely the opposite direction on all three fronts.

5. The Global Search for Education: More Focus on Finland with Pasi Sahlberg

I was very pleased that you nominated my interview with Jonathan Jansen for the Top 10.

Jonathan Jansen’s South African experience has powerful ramifications for any country looking to make significant reform. He emphasizes the importance of approaching reform with an eye toward systemic change rather than tackling issues in a piecemeal fashion. Jansen also emphasizes the public-private partnership as key to making significant change.

6. The Global Search For Education: Education Is My Right – South Africa with Jonathan Jansen

As a parent, I know fun and learning resonates with you.

Helping my children with their homework, driving them to a soccer or gymnastics practice, or watching them listen to music or draw a picture – sometimes I feel overwhelmed with the many hats I wear, but there have been several interviews in the Global Search series that have helped me to manage these competing needs. This sixth interview I selected looked at technology and “fun learning” with several Finnish education leaders, including Krista Kiuru, Finnish Minister of Education and Science, and Peter Vesterbacka and Sanna Lukander of Rovio Entertainment, the creators of Angry Birds. We need to find ways for our kids to learn and to discover in fun and interesting ways. This is a challenge given the nature of elementary school education these days. How to find time for “fun learning” when there is so much math and literacy-focused homework to do?

7. The Global Search for Education: Fun and Learning with Krista Kiuru, Peter Vesterbacka, Sanna Lukander

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“Howard Gardner covers a great deal of territory in this interview, from the role of the federal government in education to teacher education to charter schools, but what stands out most to me is his statement: “…education in the arts needs no justification in terms of ‘transfer’ to other subjects or to its generation of wealth; it is a ‘good’ in itself.” — Adam Steiner

Howard Gardner had more to do with inspiring the Global Search series than he will ever know – tell me about no. 8 on your list.

8. The Global Search for Education: The Education Debate 2012 with Howard Gardner

Howard Gardner covers a great deal of territory in this interview, from the role of the federal government in education to teacher education to charter schools, but what stands out most to me is his statement: “…education in the arts needs no justification in terms of ‘transfer’ to other subjects or to its generation of wealth; it is a ‘good’ in itself.” This is a powerful reminder that we need to build in time for our kids to enjoy the arts. If schools are going to put primary emphasis on English and math skills, this becomes even more important.

We couldn’t have a Top 10 list without Sir Ken Robinson.

You had an amazing conversation with Sir Ken Robinson, in which he describes the arts as a discipline in the same way that math, science and English are disciplines. It adds another layer to Howard Gardner’s argument about the importance of the arts. Sir Ken also emphasizes the value of approaching art and other subjects in an interdisciplinary fashion.

9. The Global Search for Education: More Arts Please with Sir Ken Robinson

Michael Fullan and Andy Hargreaves have contributed so much great work to this series – why did you select this particular interview about the teaching profession?

For me, teaching has been too often a lonely profession. I have felt that my development as a professional was distinctly separate from the needs of my colleagues. This Global Search interview, in particular, addressed this loneliness and the need to improve the profession of teaching with a collective, collaborative approach. It approached the topic from the practical side by engaging Randi Weingarten, President of the American Federation of Teachers, and from the scholarly side by connecting with Andy Hargreaves and Michael Fullan, professors and researchers on the cutting edge of educational change.

10. The Global Search for Education: In Search of Professionals – Part 1 with Michael Fullan, Andy Hargreaves, Randi Weingarten

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C. M. Rubin and Adam Steiner

All photos are courtesy of Gallery De Buck, New York. The artist is Sanna Kannisto. The series is called: Trust and suspicion, 2014. For more information.

.Join me and globally renowned thought leaders including Sir Michael Barber (UK), Dr. Michael Block (U.S.), Dr. Leon Botstein (U.S.), Professor Clay Christensen (U.S.), Dr. Linda Darling-Hammond (U.S.), Dr. MadhavChavan (India), Professor Michael Fullan (Canada), Professor Howard Gardner (U.S.), Professor Andy Hargreaves (U.S.), Professor Yvonne Hellman (The Netherlands), Professor Kristin Helstad (Norway), Jean Hendrickson (U.S.), Professor Rose Hipkins (New Zealand), Professor Cornelia Hoogland (Canada), Honourable Jeff Johnson (Canada), Mme. Chantal Kaufmann (Belgium), Dr. EijaKauppinen (Finland), State Secretary TapioKosunen (Finland), Professor Dominique Lafontaine (Belgium), Professor Hugh Lauder (UK), Professor Ben Levin (Canada), Lord Ken Macdonald (UK), Professor Barry McGaw (Australia), Shiv Nadar (India), Professor R. Natarajan (India), Dr. Pak Tee Ng (Singapore), Dr. Denise Pope (US), Sridhar Rajagopalan (India), Dr. Diane Ravitch (U.S.), Richard Wilson Riley (U.S.), Sir Ken Robinson (UK), Professor PasiSahlberg (Finland), Professor Manabu Sato (Japan), Andreas Schleicher (PISA, OECD), Dr. Anthony Seldon (UK), Dr. David Shaffer (U.S.), Dr. Kirsten Sivesind (Norway), Chancellor Stephen Spahn (U.S.), Yves Theze (LyceeFrancais U.S.), Professor Charles Ungerleider (Canada), Professor Tony Wagner (U.S.), Sir David Watson (UK), Professor Dylan Wiliam (UK), Dr. Mark Wormald (UK), Professor Theo Wubbels (The Netherlands), Professor Michael Young (UK), and Professor Minxuan Zhang (China) as they explore the big picture education questions that all nations face today.
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C. M. Rubin is the author of two widely read online series for which she received a 2011 Upton Sinclair award, “The Global Search for Education” and “How Will We Read?” She is also the author of three bestselling books, including The Real Alice in Wonderland, is the publisher of CMRubinWorld, and is a Disruptor Foundation Fellow.

Outlander Episode 3 Review: Faith vs Logic

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To better understand the analysis in this review, be sure to read this synopsis Of “The Way Out” (Outlander Episode 3) before reading it if you haven’t seen it yet!

As a woman who embraces her career as a nurse, Claire bases her beliefs on scientific fact. When she lands in the 18th century Scottish Highlands, she finds a culture who’s beliefs are firmly rooted in an odd marriage of Catholicism and superstition. Claire knows that she must tread lightly where the Highlanders’ beliefs are concerned or risk being labeled a heretical witch. In looking at the multitude of situations that are centered around the clash between faith and fact in Episode 103 of Outlander, one can better understand the impact it will have on Claire and the series’ other characters.

In adding a scene that doesn’t appear in the Outlander Novel, Executive Producer Ron D. Moore both answers the question of why Claire didn’t try to enlist someone to her her with her plight, and also shows the fear that she’s experiencing in this new world. When Mrs. Fitz slaps Claire in her daydream, it’s symbolic of the assault that her sense of logic undergoes from the madness of her new situation and dealing with the Highlanders’ beliefs. Claire’s role as healer in the castle is a tenuous one; in trying to apply her modern knowledge she is constantly halted by the antiquities of both thought and objects at hand. When she first takes inventory the 18th century “surgery,” she finds many herbs that she knows to be medicinally helpful as well as countless ones she deems as unsanitary and useless. After she culls the things she has rejected, she asks Rupert and Angus to dispose of them for her. This is symbolic of her wishes to disprove and help them reject their superstitious, unscientifically-founded beliefs. While standing with them in the kitchen, she learns of a young boy’s death, and the Highlanders and a Mrs. Fitz all attribute it to demonic possession. Claire, who doesn’t believe in this sort of thing, is visibly bewildered by the strength of conviction with which they offer this conclusion. They also cross themselves whenever speaking of anything to do with the Devil, partially to superstitiously protect themselves from and in part to show allegiance to the God they serve. Claire encounters the same superstition-based beliefs when she speaks with Colum, the castle’s Laird about the same matter in the next scene. After calling it the work of Satan and crossing himself, Colum asks Claire if they have demons in Oxfordshire, where she claims to comes from, and she wryly replies that they do, but that they “call them Scots.” Colum laughs at her wit, but her silence on the matter indicates again that she doesn’t associate the Devil’s actions with the ills of life.

When Claire is picking berries with Geillis Duncan, they discuss the MacNeil boy’s death as well as the Baxter boy, who had accompanied him to the “Black Kirk”before he took ill. Geillis reveals that Baxter is now ill with evil, just as his friend had been. Claire is in disbelief that Geillis also believes this is the reality of the situation, and Geillis makes the point that there are things that happen in this world that we can’t explain. She emphasizes to Claire that if everyone else believes that the boy is possessed that it doesn’t matter if he isn’t in reality, and also that both of them should stay away from the house; that going there would cause people to wonder if they were somehow connected to the evil at hand.

After abruptly leaving Geillis, Claire goes to the Baxter house to examine the sick boy. She finds him bound to the bed with ropes and alternately unresponsive or writhing with hallucinations. Mrs. Fitz and the boy’s mother are both terrified by the sight of him struggling with evil and torn between comforting him or staying back to keep from being possessed themselves. The frightening figure of Father Bain enters the room to perform an exorcism on the boy. Claire is irritated both by the priest’s narcissistic self-importance and her perceived futility of his actions. She leaves the house exasperated.

The next day, Claire goes to Geillis’ home to get herbs in preparation for the Gathering, and they discuss Claire’s visit to the Bacter home. Geillis reiterates the point about man not being a me to understand many things in this world, and also that she should stay away from Father Bain. She says that he has no mercy in his heart he views all women as temptresses that must be beaten daily by their husbands to keep them at bay. This reflects the stereotype of associating witchcraft with women after the sin of Eve.

Later, after asking Jamie to take her to the Black Kirk, she asks about his personal beliefs on the subject of demons, and he makes the point that he has been educated well, but that his beliefs as a born Highlander make him hesitant to tempt fate by talking ill of the Devil in his own Kirk, and then crosses himself. Claire sees here that even if she tries to educate the people in her midst about the knowledge she possesses that it will likely fall on deaf ears. After discovering the likely culprit of the Baxter boy’s poisoning on those grounds, she takes a leap of faith of her own by going to his home with what may heal him. She goes head to head with Father Bain again, as he attempts to save the boy’s soul. He labels her desire to save him blasphemy, and that HE is God’s representative. After Mrs. Fitz steps in and demands that Claire be allowed to work, the big responds well to Claire’s antidote and wakes up. Bain is soured by being upstaged and tells the women that Astana likes to upstage God with things like this. He vows that God will have the last word, and one gets the impression that he’s thinking of vengeance on a more personal level. In discussing Bain’s actions with Jamie, after the fact, he reminds Claire that Bain’s beliefs are how he makes sense of the world, just as she does with hers. He asks her if things are so different where she comes from, and she replies that they aren’t. This illustrates the universal timelessness of this clash and the need of humanity to make sense of our surroundings. To end the show, we see Claire trying to make sense of the similarity between her own incident of time travel and the one in Gwyllin’s song that Jamie translates for her. Although the concept of time traveling is illogical, Claire now knows that there’s potential evidence of other time traveling a in history, which satisfies her need for facts. The the irony of her taking hope from a folktale shows the necessity for both facts and the unexplainable in our lives, as well as those of the characters in Outlander.

Once again Terry Dresbach has outdone herself with the costuming in this episode. She emphasizes the austerity of Father Bain with his all black priest’s ensemble. The simplicity and lack of detail intensifies the extremes parameters with which he views the world, and also in how others see him, and by association, may see religion. The inflexibility and lack of deviation in his appearance serve as a visual depiction of his solemn view of God. Even Bain’s name is a reflection of the paradoxical nature of his character, which plays on the word “bane,” which means a source of distress. Geillis Duncan’s elaborately luxurious are both a visual reminder and tool of her attempts to attract the attention of others. She uses her wealth and social status, which are seen in the exquisite fabrics of her clothes, to manipulate others and seduce them for her own purposes. Dresbach completes Geillis outfit in one scene with a pair of red slippers, which is a brilliant nod to the shoes in The Wizard of Oz. Geillis is rumored to be a witch by the villagers, and Claire has basically bee. Transported to a completely different world, as Dorothy was in Oz, so the allusion works on many levels.

The soundtrack, composed by Bear McCreary, beautifully emphasizes the tension between belief systems as well. The violent, malevolent music that plays when Father Bain is involved in a scene impacts the viewer’s perception of his motives and nature. The hypnotic melody of Gwyllin’s tune about Fairy Hills, heard at the end of this episode, has musical similarities to “Claire and Jamie’s Theme” but isn’t exactly the same. This reminds us that, although her time travel story is similar to this one that it’s not the same, and it could end differently than the folktale. Will Claire go back to her own time? Only outlander will tell. While many shows paint intangible beliefs as ridiculous and only represent scientific fact as being worthy of notice, Outlander shows the benefits if keeping one’s mind open to the myriad of possibilities that exist in the world.

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Driving Without Being Taken For a Ride

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Picture courtesy of Nordic Motors

Having a great and trustworthy auto-mechanic is something I value very highly for three reasons: 

  1. I am entirely car dependent in my day to day existence.
  2. My car is over a decade old requiring frequent TLC.
  3. I don’t like to get ripped off. 

There are interesting studies done on gender and car servicing, such as those captured in this article for example. These findings align with what I have personally heard anecdotally and what is captured in surveys done on the same topic as well. Basically, women are generally quoted higher up front repair prices and receive worse service than men, but this difference is greatly reduced when women appear to have car knowledge or set clear cost expectations.

So if you don’t mind doing homework on topic such as car radiators and leaking seals, or you are passionate about cars and how they operate you should be all set. In the latter case, please consider becoming a mechanic if you are not already to help even out the current gender gap in this specific trade. If, however, you are like me and prefer to spend your research time on other topics, such as female mechanics in France, you will likely find yourself overpaying at your auto shop.

You could of course move to France. In France there are auto-mechanic shops where all the mechanics are women servicing the vehicles of a predominately female clientele. They allegedly even offer pedicures and massages while you wait, a car service haven! Fantastique pensez-vous pas? I could not find any studies on their pricing but I assume they entered the market to cater to women like me who value not having their gender drive the outcome of the business transaction, and while doing so perhaps also serve their own desire not to deal with a largely male dominated trade.  

Although I am not an advocate for gender segregation as the solution to gender challenges, I think initiatives as this one in France can help facilitate change across an industry. Time will tell I guess! If France is not an option for you just now though, as is the case for me, finding your own local car service haven is gold. The owner of my car service haven and I share a common cultural background and although that certainly bonds us, it is my pure gut feeling that I am being treated fairly that fuels my loyalty. More than fairly in fact!  Recently my car started to make noises that sounded so unhealthy that I took it into the shop although I absolutely could not be without transportation that day and had no luck arranging rides. Explaining my dilemma to the owner he offered his personal car up for the day and I took it. Fantastic indeed!  

Finding a car service haven is not always easy, so when you do, I encourage you to shout it to the world, loudly, to help such places flourish. On that note if you need a good mechanic in the San Francisco Bay Area let me know.

“A good reputation is more valuable than money.”

Publilius Syrus

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