80 Minutes That Can Brighten Your Life

I have always been a proponent of periodic journaling as a tool to help reduce stress: “personal” journals, “gratitude” journals, “why I can’t make a 4-foot putt” journals…. The idea behind journaling is that it helps you take a step back, gather and express your thoughts, reflect on your current circumstances and put things into a more balanced and accurate perspective.

I was recently reading an article about the proven benefits of another type of writing known as expressive writing. In this case, the difficulties you are having can become the fuel you need to create a personal story that can deliver healthy returns. In fact, in expressive writing’s 30-plus-year history, research shows people experience benefits like stress reduction and increased memory and immune function, often reporting fewer visits to the doctor.

The crux of expressive writing is that we all react to and handle stressful situations differently. But when it comes to family caregivers, there is an overarching tendency to keep stressors to ourselves, bottled up as personal secrets that over time can eat away at our mental, emotional and physical well-being.

What I love about expressive writing is that it allows you to become both the author of your story and its sole audience. This allows you to express your innermost feelings without fear of being judged by anyone else.

As you can imagine, whenever I broach the subject of writing, I tend to elicit the same response… “But I’m a terrible writer!” So what! The wonderful thing about expressive writing is that it’s not about having perfect grammar or punctuation. You’re not being graded or expected to perform in public. Its sole purpose is to help YOU.

Dr. James Pennebaker, a psychology professor at the University of Texas in Austin and the expert credited with pioneering much of the work done on expressive writing, believes practicing for just 20 minutes a day for four days can provide a measurable health benefit.

I highly recommend reading his book Writing to Heal, which provides a basic background and explanation as to why expressive writing has shown such great promise. It also includes a step-by-step workbook to help you begin and establish an effective approach to expressive writing. Click on this YouTube link for Dr. Pennebaker’s thoughts on this incredible process.

To help you get started, here are guidelines for each of the four expressive writing days. And, remember: during each of the four days, it is important to write continuously for the entire 20 minutes and to be as open as possible about your thoughts and feelings! Also, if by chance you feel very distressed as you write I recommend stopping the exercise at this time and consider picking it up later.

Day 1

The goal of today is to explore. Take a step back and think about the things that are most on your mind and causing you concern. Write about them and what they mean to you. How has your life changed? Are you a different person today than when you first became a family caregiver? You have a blank piece of paper, write about the event itself and how you felt when your first encountered it and how you feel about it now. Also, think about looking at how this event is tied into other parts of your life, i.e. your relationship with family members, friends, work, etc.

Remember, this is for you and only you so write about what is most important to you… the good, the bad and the whatever!

Day 2

Today continue to expand on your thoughts about yesterday’s event, although you can certainly introduce a new situation if you’d like.

You may want to think about how this situation or specific event is affecting your life both positively and negatively. Also give thought to your role in how the situation is affecting your life. Be as honest as possible with yourself.

Day 3

It’s time to dig deeper. For instance, if being a family caregiver has caused you to make compromises at work, what does this look like and how has this influenced the aspirations that you may have had before becoming a caregiver? Or, conversely, is being a family caregiver causing you to reassess your goals in a more positive way?

There is a range of outcomes and only you can assign an importance to them. I encourage you to work at getting to the heart of your feelings and their impact on you. How is your situation shaping your life and who you are?

Day 4

It’s time to tie it all together and create your story.

Today is the last day of your expressive writing exercise. As you continue to address the event that is weighing on you, think about the issues, thoughts and feelings that you have uncorked. What are your emotions at this point? Look into what you have learned, lost and gained as a result of this event and how it will guide your thoughts and actions in the future. What are you learning and what steps can you take to improve your quality of life.

Just let go. The goal is to create a personal story that you can take into your future.

Post-Writing Thoughts

At the end of each day it is very helpful to reflect on your writing session. Writing To Heal recommends using a scale of 0-10 to assign the value you feel is most accurate for each of these four questions (0 has a value of Not At All and 10 has a value of A Great Deal):

1. To what degree did you express your deepest thoughts and feelings?
2. To what degree do you currently feel sad or upset?
3. To what degree do you currently feel happy
4. To what degree was today’s writing valuable and meaningful to you?

Describe how you feel your writing went. Did anything surprise you?

Now that you have completed this journey, give it time to settle in. Family caregiving is dynamic. It moves from day to day and you can go from feeling great love to… well…. feeling quite the opposite all in the span of 24 hours. The personal story you have created will give you a better understanding of the path you are on and the adjustments you may need to make to have a more fulfilling and happier life.

I am very excited to have introduced you to this wonderful tool. I found that 80 minutes was such a small commitment for such an important building block that can strengthen your life NOW and LATER. I hope you find the same.

Help yourself. Help others.

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Hell Hath No Fury Like a Transwoman Scorned

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The first feeling to set in after the novelty of being in the right body wore off was anger. I became angry at everything to do with my gender.

I was angry at Fate for putting me in a boy’s body to begin with. What cruelty to a human soul to trap it in a vessel that did not match, forcing contortions and discomfort and unease in every hour of every day. I consoled myself with promises that I would be a stronger person because of the struggles that dogged me; while everyone else, I believed, had a head start on life.

I was angry at my own body, even once it was closer to how it was supposed to be. My shoulders were still too broad, my hips too narrow, my Adam’s apple too visible, my brow and jaw too prominent on my face, and my breasts too small and ineffectual. The best part of transition was also the worst: at last, long last, I could be made love to by a man – but I could not bear children and never would. Never mind that some regular women, and men, cannot make babies; I felt defective.

I was angry at the voice I heard from society, telling me back in those days to keep my mouth shut. Looking for my first job as an attorney, and then early on in my career, I was terrified that someone would clock me, or somehow find out, and all would be lost. Thus the fear of disclosure outlived my sex change, only in another form. I stayed quiet to protect myself from hazarding the unknown.

I was angry at men who ran away from me instead of opening their hearts. One after the other dumped me as soon as I talked about my past, or when, in one instance, the roommate of a guy I was dating got there first. I asked what difference could it make – we’d been to bed together the night before and woken up in each other’s arms. Yes, however, it was somehow different now, he said.

I was angry at all those things, and more.

But mostly I was angry at myself for accepting all this shame in the belief that the blame lay with me. If only I had transitioned sooner, then I might have escaped some of the burns that testosterone scorched onto me. If only I had more confidence in myself, then maybe I could speak up. If only I knew the words to soften my history for men, then perhaps they would try to understand instead of shutting me out before they even gave me a chance.

If only I could focus on other thoughts, then none of these problems would consume me.

Now, almost ten years later, feels like a different world. Transgender women are on the cover of magazines – including me, in a cover story for a University of California Hastings College of the Law alumni publication – and being transgender may be an afterthought or even irrelevant. The former U.S. Attorney General Eric Holder announced that the Department of Justice interprets Title VII to include gender identity, and he recently said, “We will not allow unfair biases and unjust prejudices to prevent transgender Americans from reaching their full potential as workers and as citizens.” And, on top of it all, the White House has a gender-neutral bathroom.

I remember seeing Lady Gaga at the Garden in 2011 and getting shivers just because she said the word “transgender” onstage. My eyes watered when President Obama uttered the word during his State of the Union address a few months ago.

As for me, over the course of the same decade, I fell in love with three men who told me I Love You. The first one knew about my past before we met; the other two did not. When it comes to believing the actuality of such love possible, it appears that the third time’s a charm. The lawyer in me must weigh the evidence and conclude that human beings may have the capacity for change, just as sex itself does, and sometimes to the point of transcending acceptance altogether.

So I guess the question for any of us is: do you?

My answer is that no matter what my mind, mouth or fingers typing these words may say, my heart remains, for the time being at least, in this body. She may not be the one I would have chosen, but she is mine – and I am hers.

Self-portrait by Zoe Dolan; charcoal and oils on canvas; actual size 5 ft. x 3 ft.

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Witness to a "Crisis:" 1950s Black Youth Activism That Propels Many Today

Excerpts from Little Rock Crisis: What Desegregation Politics Says About Us

One generation to the next, in city after city, the justice road is being built by each of us

Let America be America again. Let it be the dream it used to be. -Langston Hughes

As we approach the anniversary of the landmark decision in Brown v. Board of Education, on May 17th, the story of struggle and progress in Little Rock reminds us of the roots of Black youth activism in American racial history.

How do we know if the American civil rights movement of the twentieth century has had a measurable impact on our sociopolitical lives, today? You could just turn on your television because we’ve discovered that the protest actions of a brave few Black youth can determine the political and social attitudes and actions of countless others–even decades later.

In Little Rock Crisis: What Desegregation Politics Says About Us, we frame the story of the Little Rock 1957 desegregation crisis through the lens of memory. Over time, those memories – individual and collective – have motivated Little Rockians for social and political action and engagement.

A Native American saying states, “It takes a thousand voices to tell a single story.” Accounts of the 1957 desegregation crisis in Little Rock have taken many voices–all telling a unique story about experience with the crisis. Very few of the numerous accounts of the crisis examine it as a living incident.

For many, that road toward a better democracy began in Little Rock, where they were introduced to nine teenagers who changed the world. But the “crisis” in Little Rock affected many more Blacks than the Nine – both now and then.

It was between 1956 and 1958 that dozens of Black teenagers in Little Rock sought to integrate the capital city’s largest high school, Central High School. After several attempts over two years, with varying Black teenagers (and brave parents), nine courageous teenagers met on a September morning in 1957 to try justice again. On first attempt, local and state sanctioned mobs, assisted by the Arkansas National Guard were allowed to prevent the Black teens from going to school.

When the pinnacle of success can be one block over, yet inaccessible to Black you, you are wrought with agony. When the epicenter of “opportunity,” denies you because of Black you, you may lose part of you.

Federal law mattered not. Little Rock, like most “desegregation” cities in the south, was not interested in equality for Black youth.

Who said the free? Not me?
Surely not me? The millions on relief today?
The millions shot down when we strike? -Langston Hughes

Little Rock, Arkansas, is also the birth home of Mom. Mom was a teenager in 1957, and one year younger than the youngest of the Nine. Her oldest sister was in the same class as Ernest Green, the first African American to graduate from Central High School. My grandmother taught many of the Nine in Sunday School or Choir at Bethel AME Church in Little Rock.

But, Mom could not take part, having been strongly denied by her father, the opportunity to integrate Central:

“As a teenager, however, I was angry with my father’s response and his decision to allow providing for his family to take precedence over activism for civil rights. He said “No” so quickly, so forcefully! … I couldn’t have comprehended any logical or illogical explanation about the adult complexities of being dependent for one’s livelihood on the whims of a white employer.”

Though living Black in America remains a painful experience for many Black youth today, as it did then, there are positive residuals from social movement “crisis.” Black Little Rockians, from the Silent Generation to Generation Z, attribute their current engagement in political affairs to community memory of “crisis.” The result? Their politics have taken shape. They are more engaged.

Last year, research at Pew indicates that political engagement can take on many different forms, and that on every measure of engagement, “political participation is strongly related to ideology and partisan antipathy.”

But, political participation is also strongly linked to one’s motivation or impetus for engagement, In The Little Rock Crisis: What Desegregation Politics Says About Us, it is clear that one’s introduction to politics through the lens of a social (in)justice movement, such as the Little Rock “crisis,” is the reason many cite for why they 1) initially got involved in politics and 2) why they remained involved throughout their lives.

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After the Nine, came the Greensboro Four and the Nashville Sit-Ins (of which Mom was also a participant as a student at Fisk University). Then came Freedom Rides, SNCC, the Black Panthers and so many other opportunities for young activists to compel this nation to do what is right.

And, yet today, the criminal injustice systems fought against in the 1960s remain strong in Baltimore, Ferguson, Detroit, Chicago, New York, Cleveland and far too many other communities, and is met with the same injustice in many of our nation’s urban schools, where Black youth are left behind day after day. Such is the cycle of structural racism – alive today, alive in Little Rock in 1957.

Over the last few years we’ve seen the spirit of Little Rock play out across the country as millions of Black youth engage in activism against inequity. Though the cause differs, the quest for universal freedom is the same.


When Black you is made thug you by Black leaders,
you’re a stranger in your own house.

Today’s Little Rock can be found in Ferguson, Baltimore and countless other locales where injustice reigned, lives were lost, and souls changed forever. And, the secret’s out! – We’re all better citizens for having been witness to a crisis.

Those who live(d) in the shadow of crisis believe they have been significantly changed–questioning if what they went through is a crisis at all. We think it is so much more. Each burst of Black youth sociopolitical activism is an American breakthrough that impacts each of us across generations; a re-birth of democracy in action.

Ravi K. Perry, received his Ph.D. in Political Science from Brown University in 2009. He is Assistant Professor of Political Science at Mississippi State University, President of the National Association for Ethnic Studies and the Affiliate Equity Officer at the ACLU of Mississippi. You can follow him on Twitter: @raviperry

D. LaRouth (Smith) Perry received her Ph.D. in American Culture from Bowling Green State University in 1998. She is a Little Rock native and is an Independent Scholar. She resides in Tampa, FL.

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Cookie Dough Cheesecake is All You Ever Need

Cookie dough cheesecake makes a ridiculously good way to impress your friends. Because seriously, who wouldn’t be impressed.

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I love cheesecake. It has to be one of my favorite desserts, yet I often forget about it since I never eat it.

I used to date someone who was freakishly obsessed with cheesecake. Like, that was all he ever wanted, ordered it whenever we’d go out, and requested I make it constantly. I’d say if he wasn’t in love with me, he would be madly, hopelessly, devotedly in love with cheesecake. And honestly? That’s not a bad thing to be in love with.

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But much like candy thermometers and flying monkeys, cheesecake used to scare me deeply. There was something so hardcore about it, like the fact that it had to be babied and baked in a water bath like this was some kind of spa I’m running in my kitchen.

What’s next, cucumbers over its eyes? Seriously, I was not having any of this water bath, singing lullabies nonsense and therefore wanted nothing to do with homemade cheesecake. I’ll take the freezer-burned frozen slice, please. Side order of tears optional.

Then I found a recipe I ADORE for the best cheesecake evah. It doesn’t require a water bath, you don’t have to slice a cucumber or play Enya at a low volume, and it is basically goof-proof. Is it the prettiest cheesecake in the land? No, but it is one of the tastiest, I’ll guarantee that.

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There are two simple secrets to this cheesecake’s success. One, the addition of sour cream. It’s only a little bit, but it helps lend that authentic cheesecake flavor and keeps everything fluffy and moist. And two, the low-and-slow temperature. Most cheesecakes can bake at 350°F, but I find it too high, so I knocked it down to 325°F. Easy peasy!

But the BESTBESTBEST part of this cheesecake? The fact that it’s loaded with COOKIE DOUGH. Each piece has delightful pieces of cookie dough baked throughout, lending that warm, gooey, brown sugary goodness we all know and love from a buttery bite of cookie dough. Trust me – you will not be able to resist a slice of this perfection!

Listening to Enya with cucumbers on your eyes while you eat the cheesecake, however, is entirely up to you.

Get the Cookie Dough Cheesecake Recipe on Food Fanatic now!

About Hayley

Hayley is known for over-the-top desserts of all kinds on her blog, The Domestic Rebel. Since she’s fanatical about cookie dough, she’s our cookie dough fanatic!

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