Amos Lee Reveals The Story Behind 'Arms Of A Woman'

When Amos Lee was 21 years old, his mother gave him a very important birthday present: a gift certificate to a recording studio in Philadelphia.

The aspiring singer-songwriter didn’t have access at the time to a professional studio. Back then, whipping up a song on ProTools on a home computer wasn’t the norm. So the gift card, his mom hoped, would do the trick. It was there that Lee recorded some of what would eventually appear on his 2005 self-titled debut album. 

He entered the studio armed with tracks he had been working on while in college, including “Arms of a Woman,” a song he recalls writing on an air mattress in a house in South Carolina in the late ‘90s. 

“That was one of the first songs I ever remember every laying down and getting a reaction to people outside of my family,” Lee, 39, told The Huffington Post. “Because the folks that were there at the recording studio were like, ‘Uhhhh, that’s a great song. Who are you?’ I was like, ‘I’m nobody, really. I’m here. I got a gift certificate. I’m just doing my thing. I’m finishing school.’ And that was that.”

Except it wasn’t.

Although a label offered Lee a spec deal on the spot, Lee turned it down. He didn’t feel ready. He wanted to hone his craft more. And so, it would take nearly five years before he would release an album.

“Arms of a Woman” has since taken on a life of its own. It showed up in the 2006 film “The Last Kiss,” has turned into a popular wedding song, and, of course, is now a concert staple.

“It’s been something that’s brought a lot of peace to a lot of people that I know and I’m really grateful to have written it … It wasn’t autobiographical in that it was romantic. It was probably autobiographical in that I think we all long for that feeling … I remember singing that song to my Uncle Jerry when he was passing. I went to his room and that is what he wanted to hear. There are different ways that people can be touched by it. To me, it’s more of a song of the basic comforts of another human being. Nothing more and nothing less.”

Uncle Jerry inspired “With You,” one of the songs on Lee’s new album, “Spirit,” which surfaced in August. 

Less stripped down than some previous albums, Lee’s latest release includes songs with R&B and gospel flavor, a sound Lee and his band have injected into their shows in recent years. That sound can definitely be heard on on new songs such as “Highways and Clouds” and “One Lonely Light.” 

“There’s celebration. There’s remembrance. There’s a lot of stuff that I think is thematically joined in some of the styles rather than lyrically,” he said. “But there’s a lot of love. There’s a lot of figuring it out. That’s what I write about a lot. I’m trying to figure it out. But there’s also this undertone of, ‘I don’t know if I’m going to, and I don’t really care.’ It’s not really about getting to the end. It’s mostly about trying to be present where I am.”

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DOJ's Private Prison Phaseout Has Complex Roots

Part II: How the Policy Came About and Will It Last?

In a blog last week, I summarized the Department of Justice’s August 18 announcement it plans to stop sending federal inmates to privately-owned prisons. Now, let’s look at the background leading up to this change, and how far-reaching it may turn out to be.

Deputy Attorney General Sally Yates’ announcement took most commentators by surprise, but signs were in fact mounting private prisons were becoming a bigger issue. For example, spurred by Vermont senator Bernie Sanders, the Democratic Party’s 2016 political platform for the first time included a call for ending federal contracts with private prisons.

Second-term Administration efforts – like DOJ’s “Smart on Crime” initiative and a presidential commutation project – drew greater attention to the size and cost of the federal inmate population. The most immediate foreshadowing for DOJ’s announcement, however, came exactly a week earlier, when a DOJ Inspector General’s report unfavorably compared the safety and effectiveness of private prisons, where DOJ’s Bureau of Prisons has contracted to house nearly 12% of all federal inmates, to BOP-run prisons.

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The IG’s report evaluated performance data on eight key security and inmate safety criteria for the 14 private prisons DOJ used between fiscal years 2011 and 2014, comparing them with results at 14 BOP-operated prisons comparable populations and services. With few exceptions, private prisons performed worse on a per-capita basis than did BOP facilities.

Eight times as many contraband cellphones were seized in private prisons, and assaults by inmates occurred at higher rates – both on other inmates and on staff. Private prisons also had more frequent lockdowns, use of force incidents, guilty findings in inmate discipline hearings, and inmate-filed grievances; monitoring of inmate telephone conversations was lower. In private prisons they visited, IG investigators discovered new inmates being routinely held in solitary confinement, apparently as a stopgap overcrowding remedy, and detected other administrative lapses, including failure to secure use-of-force videos or take timely action against rules violations.

The IG’s report faulted BOP’s oversight, especially its compliance checklist which omits some important health and corrections services, such as verifying inmates receive such BOP-mandated services as initial health exams, TB tests, and immunizations, and which also failed to require confirmation of staffing levels and certain security inspections. The report also noted BOP compliance officers weren’t required to coordinate with health service supervisors.
Private corrections firms criticized the report, saying it lacked data to show inmate populations at their facilities were actually comparable to inmates in BOP facilities the report used for comparison.

DOJ’s announcement didn’t apply to privately-operated residential reentry centers, short-facilities for recently released inmates. Nor did it cover Department of Homeland Security– created detention centers, or state prison systems, which send far more inmates to private prisons. But private prison opponents quickly took up the call for states and DHS to follow DOJ in pulling out.

If BOP-run prisons must in fact absorb inmates transferred from private prisons, their inmate populations may not only increase, but also change somewhat in character (private prison executives note their facilities have focused primarily on housing adult males, particularly criminal aliens). And since the plan will take up to five years, its fate will largely be determined by the administration arriving next January.

Christopher Zoukis is the author of College for Convicts: The Case for Higher Education in American Prisons (McFarland & Co., 2014) and Prison Education Guide (Prison Legal News Publishing, 2016). He can be found online at www.ChristopherZoukis.comPrisonEducation.comand PrisonLawBlog.com

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Controversial Photographer Terry Richardson to Release New Book

This article originally appeared on artnet News.

The controversial fashion photographer Terry Richardson will launch a new book during New York Fashion week, which starts on September 8.

Titled Skinny, the book is a tribute to his assistant and girlfriend Alex “Skinny” Bolotow, and features intimate images of the couple’s private life. Unlike his previous work, which has drawn heavily on candid, sexualized imagery, Richardson will share some of his more personal, family photographs in his latest publication.

For example, the book features photographs of Bolotow breastfeeding the couple’s five-month-old twins, swimming, and reclining on a couch with the couple’s pet dog.

first family vacation

A photo posted by Terry Richardson (@terryrichardson) on Aug 18, 2016 at 8:58am PDT

According to Page Six, publishers Angela Hill and David Owens of Idea Books encouraged Richardson to put together the publication, which will be on sale in a limited edition of 1,000 copies.

Skinny presents a markedly different image than that portrayed in Richardson’s previous publications including Terryworld, and Kibosh, which also included explicit images of Bolotow performing sex acts on Richardson.

Consequently, a 2014 exposé published by New York Magazine called Richardson “a proud pervert,” and described his work as “misogynistic,” “extremely explicit,” and “pornographic,” and reported that the photographer has faced numerous accusations of exploiting young models. Bolotow has always defended Richardson, however. “I think part of being a strong woman is owning the decisions that you’ve made in your life,” Bolotow told New York Magazine. “Trying to put the onus onto someone else for your own decisions is really cowardly and kind of dishonest.”

Somebody call the wahhhmbulance

A photo posted by Terry Richardson (@terryrichardson) on Jun 26, 2016 at 12:58pm PDT

Despite the accusations, Richardson has enjoyed sustained success driven by the fashion industry’s desire to be associated with the candor and rawness of his imagery. Meanwhile, the art world has also supported his forays into fine art, and he has recently enjoyed solo exhibitions featuring his portraits at Galerie Perrotin in Paris in 2015 and Hong Kong in 2016.

HuffPost Editor’s Note: You can read more about Terry Richardson’s history of sexual abuse accusations here, here and here.

Need help? Visit RAINN’s National Sexual Assault Online Hotline or the National Sexual Violence Resource Center’s website.

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'The Gay Bachelor' Robert Sepulveda Jr. Opens Up About His Past As An Escort

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Robert Sepulveda Jr., aka the dapper bachelor and leading man on Logo’s new reality dating show, “Finding Prince Charming,” responded to rumors with The Huffington Post on Tuesday about his past as an escort

“The past is the past. I was young and it helped through college,” Sepulveda told host Noah Michelson. “But what I want people to focus on is who I am today as an entrepreneur, as an activist. I started a non-profit and, you know, focusing on the show. That’s really what I want people to focus on.”

Lance Bass, the show’s host, chimed in saying “We all have our past. I was in a boy band. I’ll admit it.”

Sepulveda added that being on “Finding Prince Charming” has helped him deal with negative feelings of some of his past experiences. 

“The show allowed me as well to close a lot of chapters in my life that I felt a lot of guilt around, a lot of shame and a lot of things I thought I couldn’t share and express,” he said.

Hear more from Sepulveda in the video above. 

“Finding Prince Charming” premieres on Logo on Thursday, September 8 at 9pm ET. Head here for more info.

To learn more about the new gay reality TV dating show, watch the full conversation with Lance Bass and Robert Sepulveda Jr. below:

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The 7 Pieces of Life Advice That Actually Changed My Life

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These are life-changers because they are tools to change what you need to change, and appreciate what you already have. 

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By Lisa Hickey

Some advice is perfectly good advice, but it rolls off you with no practical application, soon to be forgotten. Other advice works well to solve a very specific problem, but only that problem. The bits of advice below, however, are things I use over and over no matter what the problem. They have changed my life because now, no project seems too large, no task insurmountable. They are ways to get unstuck any time I am stuck.

1) Start somewhere, start anywhere.

I used to think you always had to start at the beginning. The logical place to start, right? And sure, there are many things where you need to do certain things in a certain order—surgery, changing a flat tire, following a recipe. But for many things, particularly creative endeavors—the beginning is sometimes an elusive little bugger. A lot of people get overwhelmed and say, “I don’t know where to start.” Now, when I’m faced with a task that seems daunting, I simply divide it into as many actions as I can—always putting in some that are so clear that I can’t possibly screw it up. Need to write a book? My to-do list might include “open up your laptop and write one paragraph.” Want to build a shed? Find a list of tools needed and make sure you have all those. Suddenly invited to give a commencement address? Think about one small anecdote that you wish you had known as a college senior and expand from there. There is no project or task that is too overwhelming if there are specific actions you know you can take. Start with those. Even if it’s not the beginning.

2) It’s OK to do things twice. In fact, plan on it.

This is a natural extension of the above, even though I heard it at an entirely different time in my life, from an entirely different (now long forgotten) source.

Say you want to go out and get a mortgage. You might get to the bank, and not have one of the papers you need. The banker walks you through the process. You go and get the rest of what is needed. But the important thing is—you had some of the papers you needed. You started somewhere. There was no way you could have known every step ahead of time, so you ended up doing some of it over. Guess what—that is not the end of the world. Getting annoyed because something took you twice as long as anticipated will only make you the type of person that is constantly annoyed. It’s as if you thought you were entitled to get something right the first time —even if it is something you absolutely didn’t know how to do.

The added benefit to this strategy is that you are constantly giving yourself a second chance. That’s a very relaxing way to live.

So just plan to do everything twice, as if it’s part of the process. You’ll never again say “I don’t know why everything takes twice as long as I think it should.” But if by chance you do get it right the first time—bingo! You’ve won the time lottery for the day.

3) Seek to connect, not to impress.

Ok, I still have trouble doing this one. I catch myself on a daily basis saying, “wow, this will really impress them.” Whoever “them” is—colleagues, friends, exes, my Facebook connections. If I really impress them, THEN they will like me! And you know what? Occasionally I do impress people. But here’s what happens next—I come across as a show-off, braggart, and unconcerned about other people. Why on earth would someone like me for that? When I catch myself only trying to impress someone, these words flash like a neon sign in my head.

“Seek to connect” is good advice whether you are dating, job hunting, out with friends, spending time with your children. It doesn’t mean that it has to be all about them, either. That isn’t connection. It’s about the back and forth, the mutual understanding, the curiosity about what is happening with the other person. It’s an additive process—a sharing of selves, not a “ta-dum, here I am”. It’s when “I” and “you” become “we”, and “we” becomes “wow”. I guarantee, it’s better than impressive. The change to my life was that in every interaction—whether with a stranger or someone I’ve known for years—I feel connected in ways I hadn’t before.

4) Don’t be the person looking for a job. Be the person doing something interesting.

Do you enjoy talking to someone who is trying desperately to convince you how great they are? Neither do potential employers. The best way to get a job is to get a referral from someone who has no vested interest in you getting the job, but has simply seen you doing amazing things. If you are out in public, doing interesting things, people will say “wow, I wish I could do things like that”. And they will want to work with you. I’m not advising you immediately stop going on those interviews, but rather ask yourself—what are you doing today that is so interesting someone will want to hear about it? What are you accomplishing? What are you building? What are you creating? What are you doing that no other applicant is doing? Spend part of your day doing those things, and opportunities will start to find you.

How practical is this and did it really change my life? Back about 5 years ago, I was doing project work, one of the few times in my life I was between jobs. I had just gotten on Twitter, and saw immediately how it allowed me to reach out to people I didn’t know, connect over ideas, and get to know people from all over the world. Around that same time, the country of Iceland had declared bankruptcy and I read an article in the Harvard Business Review about how it happened, in part, because Iceland was “too insular”. I had an epiphany: “Iceland should get on Twitter.” And I made it happen. I was able to get a proposal in front of Iceland’s Cultural Ministry, I dealt with delays when a volcano erupted, and I talked with scores of people who were doing political campaigns in social media so I could develop a protocol for how a country should talk to the rest of the world. It was one of the most interesting things I did. Shortly after my that was done, I met with Tom Matlack, founder of The Good Men Project. “So what have you been doing?” he asked.

5) Anxiety is when the voices in your head are worried about the future. Depression is when the voices inside your heard are worried about the past. Peace of mind is when those two voices stop talking to each other.

I used to think peace of mind was boring. But peace of mind doesn’t mean emptiness of mind–it means lack of conflict. It just means you get rid of the squabbling and bickering of the voices that create strife. Being present is one way to silence those voices. Being fully immersed in things you are passionate about is another. Be happy with what you have, or change what you want to change. Peace of mind actually becomes a way to shape your future rather than worry about it. Peace is not boring.

6) If you want self-esteem, go out and do something esteemable.

I used to think I could squash those anxious and depressed voices through positive self-talk. But the minute I heard this one peace of advice, I realized that most affirmative self-talk is a lie. If you are trying to convince yourself that you are better than you are, your real self will see right through you. Instead—take action. Go out and do something esteemable. It can be anything. Play with your kids. Volunteer for a suicide prevention hotline. Build a shed. Write a book. Don’t know where to start? See #1 above.

The corollary to this is “Act first, feelings will follow.” Don’t try to talk yourself into feeling differently. Change your actions, your feelings will change in tandem.

7) This is water.

Perhaps you’ve read David Foster Wallace’s graduation speech to Kenyon College. It’s worth reading the whole thing, and it’s worth watching this video, which excerpts part of it.

But here is the crux of it.

There are these two young fish swimming along, and they happen to meet an older fish swimming the other way, who nods at them and says, “Morning, boys, how’s the water?” And the two young fish swim on for a bit, and then eventually one of them looks over at the other and goes, “What the hell is water?”

When we’re immersed in the day to day, when we are always trying to achieve things like “happiness” or “success” or “freedom from boredom” – those things will always remain elusive. Life doesn’t actually “happen”, despite what the bumpersticker is. Life is. Life is simply the reality of you, living in a world you are not really the center of. And as part of that life, you have a choice, every minute of every day—about what to do and how to think. More specifically, you have a choice about what to think about. What to notice. What to give your attention to.

The above advice has changed my life because it has given me the tools to change the things I want to change and appreciate the things I already enjoy. And “this is water” remains a code for me to pay attention to the joy and beauty in any given moment.

This post originally appeared at the Good Men Project. Reprinted with permission.

Photo: danale9 / flickr

For more from the Good Men Project:

Why Confusion Is The Biggest Opportunity For Growth
The Secret to Being an Eternal Optimist
13 Rules for Being Human

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Old Navy's Take On 'Ghostbusters' Is Quite Different For Boys And Girls

Old Navy’s “Ghostbusters” apparel is haunting some buyers with its different designs for boys and girls.

As Jezebel pointed out, the retailer sells graphic “Ghostbusters” tees for toddlers. In the toddler boys’ section, fans of the franchise will find a gray tee with the classic “Ghostbusters” logo. In the toddler girls’ section, buyers will discover a pink tee with the same logo along with the words “Ghostbuster In Training.” Though both products’ labels say they’re simply “for toddlers,” the tees are currently split into the girls’ and boys’ sections on Old Navy’s site.

As one Twitter user pointed out, Old Navy currently does not have a “Ghostbusters” tee labeled for women either. Another quick scan of the site shows that the retailer’s “Frozen” apparel is featured in the toddler girls’ section, while its “Thomas the Tank Engine” products are designated to the toddler boys’ category.

On a more empowering level, Old Navy does offer tees for girls with the phrases “Girl Power” and “Strong Girls = Strong World.” And as Jezebel noted, the retailer sells a “Future Leader” shirt for boys and a seemingly more appealing “Born Leader” shirt for girls. 

Still, with all the misogyny the women of the new “Ghostbusters” and their fans faced, the glaring difference between Old Navy’s “Ghostbusters” options for boys and girls isn’t sending the best message. 

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Paul Ryan's Patriotic Video Forgot One Important Thing

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If Tech Is Hot, Is Everything Else Not?

I am the proud founder of an early-stage startup. Now, before you get all excited thinking billion-dollar valuation, ground-breaking new app or a hot, new social media platform, remember that the most successful startups still rely on the ability to provide simple solutions to everyday dilemmas.

When I tell people my company is “mobile,” they tend to think it’s an app. Well, my startup is mobile, but in the literal sense, like a food truck that’s in a new spot every day! Tot Squad is a baby gear services business that cleans, repairs and installs strollers and car seats for busy parents at different retail locations, daily. We’re like the Geek Squad of the baby world, lending our baby gear expertise to stores likes Babies “R” Us and buybuy BABY. No robots. No lasers. No holograms. And, drumroll please… we aren’t scaling on a technology platform. Rather, we are a franchise concept.

Franchise? Do franchises actually still exist? Aren’t they a concept that went the way of our grandparents and their ideas about business? Aren’t franchises just businesses like fast food, dry cleaners and plumbers?

While it’s easy to believe that only tech is hot, and everything else is not, franchising is surprisingly a major driver in our economy – an unsung hero that is built to last. In fact, one out of every 6 jobs in the United States is in a franchised business. The franchise sector contributes a whopping $552 billion of gross domestic product (GDP) in the U.S. Franchising just suffers from a major awareness problem.

What is franchising? In simple terms, a franchise is a business arrangement that allows another party (franchisee) to use a franchise’s branded and established product or service, as well as its processes, in exchange for certain monetary payments. Instead of spending 6-12 months trying to start a business from scratch, an entrepreneur can buy in to an existing, proven business model and get it up and running quickly. It lowers one’s risk of failure, which is crucial given the low success rate for new businesses.

There is a misperception that an emerging franchise concept like Tot Squad could never be as big or as successful as a tech start-up, but the reality is that franchising is an incredibly effective and efficient way to scale a business. While getting my MBA at Northwestern University, I was teased about my “cute baby idea,” but then it went on to win the Kellogg Cup business plan competition, beating out all of the much “sexier” high-tech concepts my classmates were exploring. After that, I was invited to join Goldman Sachs’ 10,000 Small Businesses program to continue growing the company and we went on to win the NextGen in Franchising Global Competition for millennials. We have since sold our first franchise and are exploring ways to expand our service platform with rideshare companies and other businesses.

At the end of the day, good ideas still matter. Tot Squad is about helping busy parents and giving them back the golden gift of time. Who doesn’t want that?

I think it’s important for young entrepreneurs not to be discouraged if their business idea doesn’t involve tech or isn’t “hot” by today’s standards. If you have an idea that is scalable, franchising is a terrific business model that requires minimal capital investment and allows founders the ability to retain greater equity in their company. Does it require a little extra hustle? Absolutely. You just have to be focused, resourceful and dogged in pursuit of your entrepreneurial dreams.

This blogger graduated from Goldman Sachs’ 10,000 Small Businesses program. Goldman Sachs is a partner of the What Is Working: Small Businesses section.

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What No One Should Say To Huma Abedin About Anthony Weiner

Monday’s revelation that Anthony Weiner was caught in yet another sexting scandal—made even more shocking by his reckless choice to photograph himself in his boxers lying next to his young son—is nothing less than devastating to him, his marriage, and his family.

With a name like Weiner—engaging in the same self-absorbed, impulsive behavior that cost him his reputation and his Congressional seat in 2011—it would be easy to descend into a middle school mentality of snickering or contemptuous joke-telling.

But I can assure you that Weiner’s wife, Huma Abedin, and other women and men like her whose partners have been chronically unfaithful, aren’t laughing.

Surviving repeated revelations of chronic infidelity is gut-wrenching and humiliating. Yet all too often the betrayed partner is blamed for the other person’s bad behavior.

Here are five things no one should ever say to Huma Abedin—or any partner going through a similar ordeal.

1
You should have left him a long time ago.

Sounds like such an easy solution, doesn’t it? But most people who discover that their partner has been chronically unfaithful don’t necessarily call it quits immediately. In Abedin’s case, the first time she was confronted with Weiner’s indiscretions she stood by her man—which is more the norm than the exception.

Part of the equation not to be overlooked is that when someone is chronically unfaithful, or struggling with compulsive behavior, there are layers upon layers of lies that have obscured and hidden the truth—making it nearly impossible for the betrayed partner to get the information she needs (and deserves) to make informed and critical choices.

Many partners stay with an unfaithful spouse because they have years—or even decades—invested in the relationship. They also stay because they want their children to grow up in an intact family. They deeply hope their partner will stop doing what he’s doing, and their marriage can be rehabilitated and salvaged. If the unfaithful partner makes a sincere effort or demonstrates honest remorse, it’s understandable that the wounded partner would want to hang in there to give the relationship a chance to heal.

2
I thought you had a higher opinion of yourself.
Why are you still with him?

This one is simply a put down. Again, length of time invested in the relationship, minor children still living at home, and a variety of other factors figure into the reasons a betrayed partner stays. And while not true in Abedin’s case, some partners are financially dependent on the person who betrayed them—making it more difficult and complicated to separate or divorce.

3
Why did you pick someone like him?

This question plagues many of the partners of the chronically betrayed I’ve worked with over the years. And worse, sometimes a therapist asks them a version of this question—implying that there must be something wrong with them to have chosen such a person for a long-term relationship. Again, blaming the victim.

The reasons we choose a particular person for a long-term committed relationship are complicated, opaque, and sometimes downright undecipherable. So when you add this complexity to the fact that the person you got in a committed relationship with was lying and deceiving you about who he—or she—really was, the net result is that you didn’t have the complete picture of who they truly were prior to these dark revelations.

4
There must have been something wrong with your sex life.
Otherwise, he wouldn’t have done what he did.

While there was clearly something wrong here, it’s even more wrong to jump to the conclusion that it was about the couple’s sex life. Many couples have sexual concerns and problems. However, sexual problems are never a reason—or an excuse—for secretive, extra-marital misbehavior.

In Weiner’s case, there are likely a variety of factors contributing to his behavior including untreated mental health issues, or perhaps a past trauma he’s re-enacting. These aren’t excuses for bad behavior, but until he gets to the bottom of what’s driving his extremely reckless actions, he’s doomed to repeat the same mistakes and risks losing even more than he’s lost already.

5
Couldn’t you have just sexted with him, if that’s what he wanted to do?

Many people who’ve discovered their partner has been chronically unfaithful are counseled by well-meaning—yet ill-informed—couples therapists who tell them to buy some lingerie or join the other person in watching some porn (if that’s what the other person is in to) as a way to resolve the issue. The assumption here is that if you become a willing participant in your partner’s previously secret sexual activities—problem solved!

In theory it sounds like it might work—in practice it rarely does. Even if the betrayed partner is a willing participant, there is a huge hurdle for the partner to get over the longstanding deception. And the truth is, most people who are trapped in a compulsive cycle of secretive sexual behavior aren’t interested in talking to their partner about it, or incorporating their extra-marital activities into their committed relationship.

So here’s what Abedin—and every partner in her situation—needs:

  • Someone to simply listen—in the most non-judgmental way they can.
  • To her tell her story and share her feelings. This one thing can be life-changing.
  • Someone who will help her discover the “right” answer to her problem, rather than telling her what “right” is.
  • Someone to honor and support the choices she makes for herself and her child(ren).

Simply, a real friend.
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Vicki Tidwell Palmer, LCSW, CSAT, SEP is the author of Moving Beyond Betrayal: The 5-Step Boundary Solution for Partners of Sex Addicts. For more information, please visit her website.

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A User's Guide To My Brain And Body

Congratulations on your new girlfriend.

Here at Katie Tandy we want to express our mutual excitement about your new relationship. The Katie Tandy Temporary User’s Guide has been designed to assist you after your recent acquisition of exclusivity.

This small, noisy model isn’t our best-seller–this Cusp-of-33-Year-Old Theater Kid GOLD Edition has its idiosyncrasiesbut those previous customers who’ve assembled it properly have given glowing testimonials on its endurance, pliability, and color scheme.

The information and diagrams provided here–written for your edification in the vernacular of the Cusp-of-33-Year-Old Theater Kid GOLD Edition (designed to acquaint you with her distinctive asides and flourishes)–will answer many of your questions and prepare you for every step of the “boyfriend” experience, making this transitional time exponentially easier.

This manual will provide you with suggested maintenance guidelines, outlines the limited warranty commitment–component by component–and guarantees your safety.* 

*All safety equipment is included in the auxiliary package. This includes, but is not limited to: respirators, hearing protection, safety nets, face and eye protection, and flares. Just as the U.S. Department of Labor states: “A comprehensive plan is necessary for any confined space entry.” If manual is not followed, Katie Tandy cannot take responsibility for subsequent malfunctions.

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A Brief Overview Of The Bodily Self

I am a touch junkie. If left to my own devices, I will bury my face between your neck and shoulder whenever possible. (It smells like bread in there.) I will take your hand in mine and bite your long knuckled fingers.

I don’t know what people mean when they say they’re “just not that into sex.” I almost can’t remember a time when I didn’t crave the body. It started with my own–I began masturbating in earnest, with intention, at age 8. We played a makeshift GUTS–may Mo and the Aggro Crag live forever!–in my backyard on my jungle gym, so it started in the classic, climbing-the-rope situation, which soon escalated to my Bumble Ball in my closet, which soon escalated to rolling around with my best friend, which gave way to holy-shit, who will TOUCH ME ALL THE TIME?

The point is, I want to ride your hand up to its hilt. I want to see your eyes perched above my dark mound of black hair and tug on your ears. I want to dissolve my every thought–silence my brain that throbs and spins and never stops ever, won’tyouleavemealone–in the sound of air escaping my lungs, the bursts of white light behind my eyelids, your voice saying, I feel you.

I want to be the pounding of blood between my legs, the slickness on my thighs, on your stomach. Can we burn and bite and taste each other until we’re so exhausted it hurts to pee even though it’s a school night?

How about we not talk at all until I’ve drained the mason jar beside your bed of all its water and I can feel myself grow silent and content and laughing, I feel you rush out of me, but I like it and want to sleep in it once in a while, so I do.

Please kiss my eyelids when we have sex. I find it to be the most tender lovely thing on earth.

Please hold my hand absentmindedly while we’re doing other things. It’s reassuring and reminds me that I am tethered to the earth.

I love being naked/in various states of undress and wish everyone was more into that in general. If you want a demure lover, partner, girlfriend, boo, sugar, darling, or love-bitch–who won’t flash nipples or underpants or chat in her towel to whoever is around or try to cajole nakedness from her companions the moment nature is around–I can’t be that love-bitch for you.

Watching people make out is the best. It’s better in Europe because everyone here is too uptight to really lay it the fuck out on each other’s faces and it’s a real shame. It’s so weird how much we love to mash our faces together and I love it and I will stare until you drag me away.

I want to touch everyone all the time. Their face and hair. I want to cup my hand on their shoulder and tell them their freckles are summer incarnate.

On My Penchant For Crying

I can be very anxious and depressed and nihilistic and I very well might wake you up in the middle of the night to sob all over your face and say, the world is so badly made.

I might see a Friendly’s and think of my mean, brilliant bitch of a grandmother who used to take me there for grilled cheeses or see an old cat whose fur is all wet and I might start crying and if that makes you uncomfortable or confused or you can’t relate to being bottomed the fuck out by how badly made the world is, we’re gonna have to go ahead and call it off right the hell now. If you’re not chronically disturbed by the human race and the lengths to which we’re wrong to one another, let us also part. Philip Roth writes in the Human Stain:

“We leave a stain, we leave a trail, we leave our imprint. Impurity, cruelty, abuse, error, excrement, semen–there’s no other way to be here. Nothing to do with disobedience. Nothing to do with grace or salvation or redemption. It’s in everyone. Indwelling. Inherent. Defining. The stain that is there before its mark.”

I’m inclined to agree. There is simply no other way to be here than in pain.

On The Fleetingness Of Physical Objects In My Orbit

I will be late a lot, my phone will be dead a lot, and I really, really hate lists. I will alternatively leave or lose my phone, wallet, and keys around town a lot and I really am working on it but I have really bad ADD (diagnosed!) and although I sometimes take Adderall to try and focus it makes me feel edgy and terrible and so mostly I just try not to forget, but that doesn’t work all the time. The key to lancing your incredulous rage that one person could be this bad at remembering things (believe me I induce said rage in myself) is believing me when I say it’s not because I don’t care enough.

When I forget things–which will be once a day–please try your best not to sigh in a terribly fatherly fashion. It makes me enraged and miserable.

(The emotional equivalent of sitting in someone else’s pee on a public toilet seat.)

On Notions Of Love And Foreverness

I have fallen prey to some (maybe) very scary societal steepings and ideally, I’d like us to be obsessed with one another. Not co-dependent or jealous–please! go and dirty dance with stranger-ladies and stay out long and hard and foster weird and wonderful hobbies that have nothing to do with me–but I’d like to feel really, really lucky to have found one another. (Not unlike two eccentric crabs who’ve been on the prowl for a shiny black rock for decades when we SHOULD be looking for dinner and then one night when we’re both ardently searching for that black rock we knock claws or eyeballs [just how does that work?!] and realize we were actually looking for each other.)

A Standard Philosophical Sidebar I/One Engage(s) In

Who. Who will hold all my pieces? Can I just hold my own pieces? Keep my own story? I feel as though it’s like 100 people having read all the chapters of a very long very good very sad and funny book . . . but only one chapter each. Together they know it dearly, but no one knows it in its entirety. And so with every year that passes and as my keepers move and fade, chapters are lost. Pages torn, stained with coffee. They’re illegible now, the passages overly underlined, over interpreted. Some ignored or streaked through with Sharpie.

The intensity of my parents’ marriage, fraught as it is, makes me wonder if this is the wattage that draws them together like moths–alternating flame and insect. Living as mutual keepers of their other selves. Holding all the context of another life.

Important Addenda

I have a chronically fuzzy tongue.

My mouth almost always tastes like fingernails because I compulsively bite them. (I do not believe this is why my tongue is fuzzy.)

I feel very ambivalent about having children.

I am almost singing all of the time.

I have a lot of stories. I will tell them loudly and with much gusto at parties. If that embarrasses you in a bad way, I am again, not the love-bitch for you.

I will make a lot of plans. I am not scared of dying–because I heartily believe I will become soil and baby deers will nibble my tender grass-shoots–but life feels very, very short and I am desperate to fill it it to the brim with long, colorful nights lest I feel I squandered it, and stare bitterly into my bedside mirror when I’m old and grey and full of sleep.

(I also believe in ghosts. And yes I know those two beliefs are largely irreconcilable, but I don’t feel like arguing about it very much. I just feel both are true.)

I will often choose my friends not over you but certainly in equal measure because I’m paranoid you and I won’t pan out and I’ll be left with a gaping heart-hole the size of a peach-pit (which is just about a third of the whole goddamn thing) and it’s best not to take those kinds of risks.

I have a really bad mouth and my laugh is medium loud so if you hate getting dirty looks* from strangers in restaurants sometimes, this isn’t going to work either.

*I am very sweet to waitstaff, however.

I’m fucked up about my parents.* I’m obsessed with them and they’re both A LOT and I talk to them and about them all the time and you are just gonna have to be into that on some level. I will say, they are both really funny and very kind and I don’t act weird around them at all.

*Can I tell you that I might marry you because when my parents die I might die too? I think we might be a little like cucumbers, likely to perish if our roots are disturbed. I believe people can die from sorrow, heartbreak, betrayal. I dated an Englishman for a couple months who was purposefully callous–with the exception of discussions surrounding his father. One night we had drunk too much as we always did and I said, “I might have to marry someone just to scrape me off the floor when my father dies!” (That’s where I always imagine the final snap will happen. Something about all that white tile.) I said it at the time to be coy and hyperbolic–one of my specialities. Maybe we’ll get married because you’re just as fucked up and overly attached to your parents as I am! I brought my face close to his and smiled into his mouth. But then I realized, sipping my too-big martini, that it was true. So are you up for that? My inevitable mental collapse? I am rather buoyant and my “genes are good”–I’ll probably stay lithe-limbed forever if that’s any comfort? But boy oh boy, get ready for one spooky bitch you’ll be sharing tear-soaked pillows with around age 65.

I poop a lot and hate to close the door because it makes me feel really lonely.

I love gardening, but I’m not very good at it. Please be excited when I show you some baby zucchinis that are growing. It will really hurt my feelings if you don’t show interest. It’s not rational, but what can you do.

I have a lot of guy friends and will always kiss them hello and sit on their laps sometimes and flirt mercilessly. But I flirt with everyone. Including every dog I meet.* This is not a sign of disrespect. When I am with you I am so fucking with you, you don’t even worry about it.

*I love animals. I don’t do that the high-pitched squealing thing BUT I will show you videos of inter-special friendships between animals and I will be highly moved and I need you to understand (even vaguely in a gauzey not-so-clear way) that inter-special friendships are the surest sign of God’s existence.

I will talk about books I’ve read a lot. It’s okay that you haven’t read them but please listen to why I love them; books and stories are the way I understand the world in many ways.

I will always bake you a cake for your birthday if you’re into that and make a big deal of it–I love birthdays.*

*This includes my own birthday. I can’t help it; I know I’m too old to care this much, but I still love to get dressed up and have everyone sing around me even though it’s mortifying.

I will drink too much a couple times a month but I don’t behave too badly.

I oddly subscribe to antiquated niceties. A weird handwritten note is just about the best, and I love flowers.

I will keep you up late every night if you’re not careful and you’ll be tired a lot. Tell me you need a quiet night ahead of time and I will try and respect that.

I pretty much hate sports and fundamentally disagree with all the things it sets into motion . . . I try not to be a harpy about taking man-children and turning them into demi-gods we can then desecrate and render bankrupt and broken-bodied . . . but I can be rather snide. The takeaway is that I will probably never join you at a sports bar, I find it too depressing.

I will always want you to dance with me if it’s at all remotely appropriate. Please dance with me, we’re all going to die and everything is moving too fast, you might as well sway with my body next to yours.

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